im stuck at home for the whole day orayd. i think i had enuff of mi emotional battles. not onli the boredom is killing mi, i get depressed bout him again. i wish i can pour out all of mi heart out into this blog ever so freely. i think i desperately need something that i can confide to.
actually i haf no idea exactly wat im so vexed about. its been hours since he last replied to mi sms. it lead mi to think: wat exactly m i to him? m i juz somebody that he think i can entertain him whenever he is bored and forget about mi including that i haf been wating for his reply whenever he is preoccupied? i guess he would never ever understan mi feelings. never. i cant pick miself to tell him either. wats the use of telling him? its not like we r possible. i juz feel so contradicting. sometimes i feel so happi when i was talkin to him. sometimes i feel lifeless when he dont reply to mi sms. sometimes i feel that he cared for mi. sometimes i feel that i shud forget him n that this is not worth so much of mi emotions. so confusing... y r humans made to feel this way? y m i not b able to ignore this feeling? its torturing mi everyday.....
