WEEEE!! i flunked my maya test again!! *clap clap* *woohoo* guess what? my helicopter just raises to the motion path and froze there!! all the way until the 900th frame!! isnt that just amazing? -___-"
argh. i really feel like shit. i dunno what the fvck is going on with me. im getting lazier and lazier than before. already beyond limits. lost the will to battle with myself. thats bad, thats bad.
i still liked j-rock. ok thats random.
missy blogged @ |8:18 PM|
nothing much happened. rainy season is almost over. *hurrayyyy* no more getting splashed by cars zooming by. and most importantly, CNY IS ALMOST HERE!! just 3 weeks. im so soso in need of cash. quickly feed me with ang bao please. *wallet opens mouth*
weeee!!! finally cut my hair. and this is the first time im ever satisfied with my new hairstyle. thanks siti for bringing me to the salon!! the hairdresser gave me a perm demo (for free!). wakaka. his hair styling skills are good lar. its a surprise that there is nobody at the salon the time i went there.
double weeee!!! bought my new computer today!! finally gonna have a lag free, anti retard, super speedy computer (2GB RAM!!) and my bro will have this idiotic computer~ *gloats* my computer will be arriving this wednesday. xD
thats all. gotta go bath and sleep. gotta go to school extra early to practice maya!! but i know im gonna fail the test again this time lar. so see ya next year, mr jacques!
missy blogged @ |12:52 AM|
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*Friday, January 11, 2008
ok. sorry that i misunderstood. sorry for having too much thoughts. u must have read my blog by chance. i dont know if u are still angry after reading my comment but i hope u dont take it heart too much. whose fault it is to start this misunderstanding is not important. but hope i can still stay as a friend. sorry. thats all i have to say.
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things are going into a way that makes me moody again. somehow i feel something weird coming in our way. i am afraid that our relationship will turn lukewarm again. maybe i really did change. that is not the problem. the problem is that i dont know how i had changed. i wanted very much to go back to my old self he wanted me to be again. but i dont think i have changed in any bit. i just dont get it.
im at loss again.
why is relationship so difficult to understand?
missy blogged @ |7:54 PM|
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*Friday, January 04, 2008
weeee. 2nd week of year 2008. year 2008 had began with a bad start with a totally ruined new year day. and proceeding with a series of crazy incidents. definitely not my year. here goes my year as a 18 year old. -__-"
finally have zero contact with r******. cuz i blocked him on msn and ignored his sms. wahaha. he freaked me out by asking me if he can jio me. =.= even though he said he was joking, i know he actually meant it to some extent. even when he asked me out to watch AVP i invited yun and william along. then i asked yun to call him saying she and william couldnt go and i have tons of assignments to rush, therefore couldnt go also. =X have to be this heartless in order not to jeopardise the relationship between me and dear. i had wanted to treat him as merely a friend, but if i accepted his invitation i will be equivalent to cheating on dear. even though dear was nonchalent about it when i told him about it. =.= but i didnt blame him because he knew he can do no good by being jealous all over. and most importantly, that he trusted me not to betray him. ((= dear is so good~ wahaha. =P
there was this one time when i was going to the bookstore with my class peeps to buy mounting board for digi assignment. i walked towards the counter to pay for my mounting board. then there was this b*stard who came to the counter at the same time as me and it just happened that i was standing in front of him. then he said loudly in chinese "miss, do you mind that i pay first?" wtf lar. its not like i cut his queue or something right??!! this moron got zero 风度 and attitude can be as stinky as a pile of shit. even my class peeps at the counter was shocked by his rudeness. so i suppressed my anger and reckoned him to pay first. then he said "nvm lar, later people say i bully a girl" yeah right. by having this kinda attitude to piss anybody off lar. this is just part one of the story. lolls. =.=
part two. then there was this another time that siti and i was standing at the table my class was sitting at in the south canteen. then super suey and super random bad luck, that b*stard was sitting on the next table from our class. and that b*stard said to siti that his friend wanted her number. i tsk tsk-ed her and shook my head, asking her not to give out her number. luckily she didnt. ^^ whats worst is THAT b*stard said he wanted to get to know me. like wtf. like i will be bothered with this kinda asshole. so i didnt give out my number as well. then that b*stard said i'm very fierce towards him. well, its only natural. =D
then on that day, i went back home and i immediately went O_O. i found my chair broken and chucked on a corner of the living room. =.= it was my brother's doing. he was too fat that he sat and broke my chair. wtf. that was totally not my day lar. =.=
was totally depressed when i got back my digi assignment 1. i've got a pathetic little D!!!! WTH!!! it made me wanna give up. -__-"
now. concentrating on rushing the folding box. DARN HARD LO. i didnt even plan for the closing lid. wish me luck to be able to submit both my bowling ball and the folding box on time.
**TY DEAR DEAR!! u are sooo sweet. xD i wont be ton-ing anymore ler~! i will take care and watch my health de~!! dun worry about me. keke. =D
till the next update.
missy blogged @ |10:20 PM|
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*Tuesday, January 01, 2008
finally touching my blog again. shall not treat my blog as something to vent my frustrations and depressions on anymore. so i shall blog on... supposingly lighthearted stuffs?
29 dec. william and yun's chalet. went to bukit batok ns home team chalet with yun. dear refused to come. DX he will sure feel weird there with so many people he dont know. let alone me. -__-" the moment we reached the chalet until the moment the weird person sleeping in the bunk woke up was all awkward. =.= then i got to know the weird sleeping person (wilfred) after he had woke up. then me, yun and wilfred had a blanket fight. lolls =.=
at the bbq, yun and me didnt get to help william with the bbq stuff. we were just aimlessly wandering around and found a spooky path leading to the adventure centre. turned out to be not as spooky as we thought and we got 3 mozzie bites each. =.= went back, eat not much for the bbq and went back to the bunk to stone. it was really boring so far cuz everybody (including william's family and a whole lot of friends from all over the place) we dont know were all downstairs. then i finally picked my lazy bones off the bed to fetch yun's friends from ntuc. then somehow yun, her another ntuc friend and me end up reliving our deprived childhood at the playground. we played like a bunch of lunatics at the "walk-walk-thingy" and the see-saw.
then blah blah blah, yun and i took a quick bath. then yun and i rushed for the swings while they were finally available. here comes reliving our deprived childhood again. =.= and then i got motion sickness from all the swinging and decided to take a nap at the bunk. somehow woke up, then me and the other guys at the chalet played Cheat to pass the time till morning. i won 2 rounds of the game!! wheepee. i count my luck as an "honest little kid" to win the game. =D
then all of us decided to turn in. then the problem came. no space to sleep!! *faints* i took an uncomfortable position of maying my head on the coffee table in attempt to sleep. attempt failed. =.= so i took my refuge in the air con room and curled up at the corner of room (literally!! faints.) and managed to sleep for 2 hours!! *deng deng*
next morning we checked out and had lunch at the kopitiam. i somehow irritated kai boon or whatever his name is with my "huuuuuhhh?" then we had kuey chap and took a cab home. car sickness again!! ><" and this is how i got home.
will post the pics again. due to the stupidity of blogger which refused to upload the pics. and i havent got the pics from stanley yet. so well.
sigh. my holidays overall sucked quite alot due to the suckky start and a suckky ending. yeps. a suckky christmas eve, a suckky new year eve and a suckky new year day thats it. and a suckky incident leading to my suckky mood. argh. im beginning to feel things between us are starting to suck a little. this seems to happen whenever both of us have a long break. thats weird huh? although we seemed as though we are as happy as always. (at least to him, he is happy; the problem is always me feeling out of place) but the problem still managed to squeeze through all these and sink in. maybe its because i can sometimes forget. maybe i was being selfish and greedy. i dunno. hoping that he will change for me is a little too selfish isnt it?
