i surprised myself for ever thinking of posting on this blog again. but it think i will better write down in black and white in case i have forgotten again, given my limited intelligence.
determination. i must not lose my determination. its been really really long since i have been determined about doing something. this time i think i am about to break my limit of my determination because i must change my forgetfulness within one month (or more?) i am a person who procrastinates so much that it can be compared to the amount of rice i've eaten, honestly speaking i still not sure if i am able to do that within a month.
forgetfulness. i must not forget to call you everytime i get home. i must not forget to call you when i am out doing something else. i must not forget the important stuffs you had said (like what are the plans you have for the next blah-day). i must not forget to be determined to change my forgetfulness. (so if i may request, dont get angry if i ask you one more time - to confirm again)
and, i must not forget you have the right to be angry with me and that you might forget and your old habits acts up again (its not i am underestimating you, i definitely have faith in you that you will try your very very very best in changing), i will still forgive you, as long as its not way overboard. humans are not meant to be perfect every single time, isnt it? this i have understood it well.
yes, i am trying very hard to psycho myself. although part of me didnt want to do it, i will just do it anyway. because this will benefit me in the long run. hopefully this can reduce my risk of getting Alzheimer's disease at a young age. i dont know if my brain can take this kind of stress, but im afraid one day it might get screwed up and go crazy (ok im bullshitting a little).
but, i really hope you can understand if i ever fail sometimes. like i said, i will bear with the little discrepancies that you might show after one week, i hope you will do the same to me too.
but nevertheless, i will still love you and cherish you. we work hard together for this relationship, ok?
