lolls. im so dead. the lady boss saw mi msn paulina "yay shes gone" after she exit the back door and saw mi dozing off in front of the comp screen. aiya heck lar. its not like im gonna stay here forever.
anyway. ytd slacked the whole day off. after renaming the files n doing a little excel stuffs, i left with totally nth to do. so i just played game/slp throughout the 4 hours. then after work there was this last-thursday-of-the-month even at the cafeteria. got freeflow of red wine!! so mi paulina qiuwei n lifen seized this opportunity to drink. xD im forced to gulp down half a glass of red wine. >< the taste is yuck but after effect is thrilling. lucky mi face didnt turn red like lifen's n i still managed to remain sober. our wine glasses evidence no. 1 of underage drinking evidence no.2 of underage drinking
then after that we got abit high (dunno izzit cuz of our wine) n boarded the train. den we made a ruckus at the mrt n everybody was like staring at us like a bunch of lunatics. then suddenly i got a call from thomas. then veri suey!!! he was in the train also. same compartment somemore. -___-" tio 4D also not as lucky. -_____-"
anyway mi and qiuwei got down at woodlands to meet jean to celebrate her bdae. then we went yoshinoya to eat dinner n to share the tiny piece of cake mi n qiuwei had bought at breadtalk at $5.80. qiuwei jean n meeeeee
then after that we went home. then end of story. lolls.
aiya got to go back to do work liao lar. have to finish 10 pages in an hours' time. impossible mission. obviously i had been slacking hopelessly. but heck. at least i noe i have sth to do next wk.
missy blogged @ |4:16 PM|
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*Wednesday, September 26, 2007
booooooooooooooooooooo. slacking again!! omg im a super time / sph salary waster. they pay mi to slack!!! waahahahaaaha. i think im crazy. suddenly im self high-ing. ytd went to play candles again. this time is with qiuwei. once again onli 2 ppl playing. wahahaha. was kinda sian actually lar. we kinda had heart to heart talk with her. wished i can do that with him also. and then somehow i had that weird feeling again. like some kind of crushed-hope that kind of feeling. or some kind of wake-up-to-the-cruel-reality kind of feeling. cant really describe it. it left mi kinda emo again.
sat quickly come!!!! stop torturing mi by dragging by so slowly, u stupid time.
**edit so suey juz now lar. i dropped a piece of sesame chicken onto mi jeans. now mi jeans got a mixture of all sort of flavours orayd. got drinks tom yum now sesame chicken. can make a main course orayd. yuck. im gonna bear with it for like 2 more weeks before i finally wash it.
ahhhhh!!! now i really think im fat. fatty ying!!!! ahhhhh!!
missy blogged @ |12:40 PM|
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*Monday, September 24, 2007
finally updating!! was too lazy / tired to update. currently slacking in front of the office computer. yawnssssss. so tired bored and watever lar. but hope this week will pass by as quickly as last week. i want that day to arrive as fast as possible.
nothing much happened during the wkends. went out with jean on sat. went to bugis again. was so sian that i have no mood to shop. then went to chinatown with jean. planning to meet her cousins for dinner but i changed my mind cuz i was too sian/ tired. oh, on the way there i super coincidently met clare with a guy/her bf(??). than when she intro-ed mi to the guy fren, he remarked i'm wan ton's fren. -__-" than we reached chinatown and shopped at the og for a moment and became very sian again. so i went home without meeting qiuwei who was doing ot until 1030.
on sun i went out wif yun to explore central. it is newer than i expected but alot of the shops are still unopened so the shopping mall is still a little empty. went to eat lunch after that. the tom yum steamboat we shared was nice~~~ than we shared a bowl of almond jelly with longan after that and i feel like exploding already. the tom yum steamboat the view of clarke quay from the food court the super cool shop design yun and me were fascinated by
then i played her (bf's) psp and became addicted to the game all the way from dhoby ghaut to marina bay then to khatib. then when we reached khatib we went to eastern bookstore (reluctantly) to buy fairy firesticks and candles. then we went to the khatib park and entertained ourselves with candles. the heart i made with candles cant really see the words inside =.= fairy firesticks!!
then there was this weird pehpeh that walked pass us and asked us in chinese "wat are u two doing here?" den i stunned and stared at him and told him we playing with candles. i thought he is going to tick us off for vandalising the park with wax of something. then he asked wat we do that for wat. then i hestitated again and said its lantern festival. then he went off to narrate his sob story about him being in the orphanage with his 12 other siblings for almost half of his lifetime and did not know anything about such festivals and blah blah. then he said he dont have any friends blah blah blah. he was a little pitiful so i gave him face and listened to him patiently. -__-" then finally he went off. and we went back to our candles. lolls.
then i got boliao and did a wax heart for him. wasted alot of red candles. and the heart ended up lookin a little disgusting cuz of the ashy ashy wax mixed with the red wax.
then after that yun's bf came and entertained himself with the flammable white wax he brought. yun and i joked bout him finally getting back his childhood. lolls~ then we played and burnt and vandalised the park until 12am and i went home cuz of this stupid work that required me to wake up early.
so tts all for the update. shall continue boring my ass out myself until leon comes back and assign me something to do. ciaos now~
missy blogged @ |10:23 AM|
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*Wednesday, September 19, 2007
another monotonous day at sph. 10 hours staring into the computer screen doing brainless job. i wonder how the working ppl there managed to work there for like years. i cant stand the thought of having to work there for even a year. maybe im not matured enough to have the "work for food" mindset yet. but this is how life should be i guess. especially in singapore. sad thing isnt it? life is meant to be boring here.
im starting to wear the necklace again. cuz i believe there's still hope. i've never thought i will ever take it out of the drawer again. i hope i dont have to put it back there again.
missy blogged @ |8:08 PM|
a tide had been overcome. now another one is coming again.
i really suck. im really disappointed. but i should say i deserved this result for slacking throughout the whole semester. but honestly this course is way too demanding. ppl got an average of around 3.5 in other courses while we have only like 3.0? its not fair lar. how can we even enter uni with this kinda shit score?
wtf lar. i really suck lar. tml im gonna wallow in depression again.
missy blogged @ |2:33 AM|
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*Sunday, September 16, 2007
new handphone!! weee!! got a k530i for free with 1 gb memo card!! xD xD so i gave mi dad mi current hp with empty inbox and whatsoever.
went to bugis to bomb mi money again. this time i only bought a plain off shoulder and a black skinny jeans. i've restricted myself alot alot alot already. i've spent like a hundred dollars ytd so i cut down on buying somemore today.
waited slacked and kpo-ed at yun's pushcart while waiting for qiuwei. working at a pushcart actually is not bad for a job. got lots of freedom and plus its slack. n can k-po everywhere and however u like. maybe i can get a part time job at a pushcart during skool days.
juz ate mi family steamboat. from this wk i will have a curfew on every sun for a family day. DX
sian. tml gonna work again. currently motivated to work. earn lotsa money money. im gonna do ot on every possible day~!! xD xD n earn back mi once again (over)spent money again. weee!! dis time i hope its not so dull as fri. cuz qiuwei is joining us tml. =D
i can stand up again. altho i know i will feel sad once in a while, but i can be mi cheerful self again. ending it may not be a bad thing. it ends all the pain once and for all. no regrets. i will work hard to forget and move on. i can do it!! aja!! kampatei!!
missy blogged @ |11:09 PM|
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*Saturday, September 15, 2007
weee!!! i've finally found this song!!! this song is like super nice lar. instantly fell in love with it when watchin NANA series. xD
today juz had the first day of the admin job. overall comment: SUPER sian. the whole day is onli staring at the screen doing brainless stuff editing the advertisements online. actually i can get to slack but i didnt. xD i juz worked full blast and ot-ed for 1 hour. but the people there r quite ok. jess (or i dunno wat name) treated mi minute maid and chocolate muffins!! lolls~ so basically is juz brainless and robotic job with pay of 6 per hour. actually is not bad lar. the ppl dere still can afford gucci ties and big cars lar. proved how rich u can get for doing this job. =DD
so happi!! im finally getting mi overspent money back~!! n finally time for shopping again!! wahaha!!
if 6 per hour and work 10 hours per day, 60 per day exclusive of OT, then if i work till the 15 oct (22 days including today), i can get $1320 at least!! weee!! man im rich!!! lalalalala~~~~~~
missy blogged @ |1:01 AM|
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*Wednesday, September 12, 2007
i can do it. i can lead a happy life once again. no more such troubles again. yeah!!
im gonna narrate all on the light hearted stuffs happening in these few days. i shall start with the day when we had our gathering at palawan beach. it was quite fun lar. mi jean n cherie went off to explore the area while de rest were playing frisbee and volleyball. but sally was soaking in the water all by herself. lolls. den the 3 of us buried our feet into the fine sand. den we went mia and went to de ice cream store to share a cup of ice cream. the finished ice cream~ cherie mi and jean
on the way back to vivo, we girls got crazy and started doing crazy stuffs. we posed at some whacky looking statues. xD victim no.1: the fruit knife lady victim no.2: the blonde hunk with sally still victim no.2: mi and qiuwei victim no.3: the ice cream man
after tt we went back to kg to eat. =.=" the guys had complete meals and de gals had only french toasts. but i only had half piece of butter toast and 2 cups of plain water. =.=" wasnt in the mood for food. i juz glugged down my cup of water and den qiuwei's to fill mi stomach. loll. so tts all.
mon, qiuwei jean n mi went to plaza sing to catch ratatouille. de movie is so so cute!!! its funni n inspirating too. anyone can cook!! lolls. then we walk around basement2 to decide wat to eat. i got strawberry almond with white chocolate crepe~ didnt take a pic of it cuz im too hungry. DX qiuwei n jean got a riceball each. den de 3 of us went to de ice store for desserts. we ordered a mixed fruit ice of kiwi mango and strawberry with a mango sherbet on top~ before and after xD
and after tt we ran out of time and went home.
today i went out with de kg ppl again~ but this time dere were less ppl. ._. onli james, qiuwei, mi, paulina and yze yang. we went to watch apartment 1303!!! wahaha!! some parts are scary, (but not scary enough to scare mi) but de ending is errrrrr...kinda lame. de female lead still died in the end. =.=" but aniwaes. generally it was fun today. we shud really do this often. xD
so tts all for now. tata~
missy blogged @ |11:39 PM|
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*Tuesday, September 11, 2007
i think its over now. i had always been thinking the one who was being selfish is me. but i guess im just being too submissive. too submissive for ur even greater selfishness. do u even noe this whole thing had been torturing me since way before u ever known? even if u knew it well, why do u still torture me further? just because ur too afraid? do you even know im drifting further and further? do you even care? i guess not. im finally convinced now. a simple wish like that u still chose to keep to urself.
ur hopeless now. i have also lost all the hope for u already. completely. be it will u regret it later i dun care.
or are u intending to force me to say it out for u? if u are, then ur wish is granted. after that nobody can tie u down. u can do watever shit u wan.
im not sad at all. maybe i've become immune to the ways u hurt me.
missy blogged @ |2:01 AM|
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*Sunday, September 09, 2007
i must be so stupid. i blurted out that im attached to mi mom last nite. she was forcing mi to tell her everything. but in the end she gave up. i didnt expect i will so stupidly blurt out to her. i planned to keep this relationship unknown from her forever. i dont want any unnecessary comments. right now the situation is in the middle of resolving anyway. in the end we just either break up or patch up. wont make any difference if i tell her everything.
time is running out. im not even sure if the situation will be resolved before reaching the time. i regretted not bringing up the issue earlier.
whose fault was it is not important right now. i just hoped very much things will go back to the happy days we used to have. but i not really expecting a good outcome. i know this situation had snowballed to almost to the limit where it cant be resolved anymore.
even if we really break up, i think i wont feel sad for our future we could have built but only for the past memories. maybe breaking up will be good. that way i wont get hurt anymore in the possible future. this could be mi selfish thinking. compared to the love lost i prefer not to get hurt again. maybe mi heart is too weak to overcome even more and harder obstacles laid out in the future. it is too weak to deal with the loneliness too. maybe his heart will get tired of loving me after being worn down with so much distance and obstacles too. i cant help being so pessimistic about our future. but this is wat usually happen to most couples. this is undeniably a cruel fact for couples separated by ns.
aside all these, having a glimmer of hope of patching up wont hurt right? i hope i will have the strength to keep going.
im still waiting. i wished it can hurry up, but this must take time.
missy blogged @ |9:28 PM|
.. i must be strong. waiting for you to think over it.
i must pick myself up.
missy blogged @ |1:22 AM|
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*Thursday, September 06, 2007
i wan a job. i wan to be happier. i wan to smile everyday again. i wan i wan i wan.
im sick of staying at home and wallow in depression. i wan to work to take mi mind off things.
if mi application for kg is accepted it will b gd. it will be de reunion with some of the kg pals. qiu wei, shuying, james, boon. altho its a small number compared to last time, but seeing them will be great.
how i miss kg days. the days when i smile everyday. had fun everyday.
i rather not tasted love at all. i rather not knowing the cruel side of love. i rather to go back to the past where i still wonder how it was like to be in love.
missy blogged @ |7:33 PM|
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*Wednesday, September 05, 2007
crap. tml will another shit boring day. mayb i realli shud quit being a slacker and find a job.
but... arrrghhh i realli dunno. im hestating again. -_-"
aniwae. kana saboed for dunno how mani times.
here is the game: List out your top 5 birthday presents u wish for:
#1: birthday surprise~ xD
#2: sincere birthday wishes from friends?
#3: to have mi friends celebrate mi birthday every year
#4: errr.. a birthday cake? -__-" (i dunno wat more to wish for)
#5: a sweeter he!!! LOLLLSSS....... (ignore mi pls!! -__-")
1. The person who tagged u is: huihui
2. Your relationship w her is: Good friends
3. Your 5 impressions of her:
- outgoing - friendly - sincere - likes wu zun too much =X - sweet lolls!
4. The most memorable thing she had done for you: ermmm.. going skool with mi everyday during sec skool days? lolls.
5. The most memorable words that she had said to u: hmmm. dun realli have a specific sentence that i rmbr de best.
6. If she becomes your lover, you will? : LOLLS!! im not a les -__-"
7. If she's your lover, what she has to improve on: stop being stubborn!! LOLLS no offence =X
8. If she becomes your enemy, you will? : nolah. she too friendly liao, HOR?
9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is: hmmm, i dun treat people as enemies.
10. The most desire thing you would like to do for her now is? : SPAM her blog with chain games!! wahaha joking.
11. Your overall impression of her: ichiban LOLLs
12. How do you think people around u will feel about u: veri smart and hardworking and friendly and outgoing and sugar and spice and everything nice (sorri, weather not cold enuff)
13. The character u love about yourself is: errrrr... likes to laugh? -__-"
14. On the contrary, what character u hates about yourself: whoa, this post gonna explode if i list all of them.
15. The most ideal person I would like to be: errrr? myself probably.
16. For the people who cared & liked you say something to them: THANK MUCHIES AND I LOVE YOU ALL TOO!!! lollsssss~~~
17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that u wish to know how they feel about u. Hey, please do k? Its quite fun though its long. Thanks (:
wahh. i dunno who to tag lar. i juz do this for fun. whoever wants do this test juz do it lar. BUT, put mi as de tagger~ xD
missy blogged @ |12:02 AM|
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*Monday, September 03, 2007
.... im feeling lousy today again.
missy blogged @ |4:47 PM|
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*Sunday, September 02, 2007
haiz. hao bu rong yi dragged through almost a day without feeling gloomy. yet i have to feel it now.
everyday i have to wait in vain. everyday i have to suffer disappointment. everyday without fail i will feel such misery. im realli sick of this orayd.
looks like its the same thing again. it seems that he doesnt care at all.
